I guess there's just something there that I didn't see before
Do you know what a great feeling is?
It’s knowing that you have the ability to impact other people’s lives just because of who you are.
I went with my little sister to a work function earlier tonight. She works at Best Buy in Longview - my first legitimate job (I now work at the Best Buy in a neighboring city). It was family night, and there were a few people who said they had wanted to see me, so she brought me along.
I had no idea what to expect before I got there. I was actually feeling a tad nervous, but I allocate that to something else - not the event itself.
It almost felt like a huge welcome party. I had old managers and coworkers telling me hi, giving me big hugs, telling me that they miss me, asking me how life was; it was just crazy!
We got past the “how are you’s” and “hellos” and then the real fun started. People started cracking jokes about how me and my little sister look alike, but we act completely different. I believe one analogy was “yin” and “yang”.
Now don’t get me wrong, I love my little sister to death, but she can be a bit much at times - a bit rude, a bit blunt, and a lot of sassy!
What I had found amusing was how people were describing how she was just rude and mean (they all said it in a joking manner, but I have no doubts that some of them held more truth than jokes). I had so many say that I just left large expectations to meet. They said she was wonderful, but nothing can beat the original.
The fact that I had all of those people regard me so highly was just astonishing.
I always thought myself to be insignificant and small, but tonight showed me that I impact people’s lives I never could have imagined.
They were telling me to come back because they needed my hard work back, my laughter that supposedly “fills the entire building”, and everything else I had to offer.
Months later, and my old coworkers still regard me as, essentially, one of a kind. I’m not just another employee. I brought something that can’t be overlooked or easily forgotten, and I can’t believe that I had overlooked something so moving in myself.
The amazing part? I was only ever myself. I was only Kayla, and everything that being Kayla entails. I didn’t have to pretend to be something else. So the fact that those people missed me so much, and regarded me so highly means a lot because they’re talking about me - not someone I pretended to be, but me.
Tonight puts everything into a different perspective for me. How many lives do I affect just by being myself? What will my new coworkers think of me when I decide to move on? Will they feel the same way as my old coworkers (my old family (: )?
I can only assume I’m doing something right because people just don’t say those kinds of things for no reason. The things that I heard some people saying have to be earned, and I can’t believe that just by being myself, I earned it.
Now I have no excuses to put myself down because I don’t deem myself worthy. I clearly impact the people around me, and that’s not something that should be so easily overlooked.